[UPDATED] Gay Porn Star Alexander Gustavo Commits Suicide In Las Vegas

Posted December 19, 2016 by with 120 comments

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Str8UpGayPorn is sorry to confirm the devastating news that gay porn star Alexander Gustavo has died from a self-inflicted gun shot wound in Las Vegas, Nevada. He was just 31 years old.

Gustavo’s body was found tragically this morning by fellow performer Jaxton Wheeler. Wheeler had just returned home from filming with Kink and discovered Gustavo, who had committed suicide by shooting himself in the head. Gustavo and Wheeler (as seen below last January) had been roommates, co-stars, and great friends.

wheelr“I’ve never seen something like that in person before,” Wheeler tells Str8UpGayPorn. “I’ve lost friends, but for it to be my best friend; he was like my brother. We really enjoyed working together…he looked out for me and I looked out for him. To know that he didn’t say one thing to me, didn’t reach out, [and] to find him with his girlfriend and her son following right behind me. It just keeps playing over and over in my head.”

Gustavo, an award-winning and versatile performer who had that famous crown tattoo along his waist, had just filmed new scenes for Hot House in Las Vegas, and was RT’ing news about his work as recently as last night.

Alexander Gustavo started his adult film career in 2012 and has since performed in dozens of gay, straight, and bisexual scenes for multiple studios, including Men, Kink, Hot House, Pride Studios, and NextDoor. Co-stars, crews, and peers who filmed with or met Gustavo over the years are remembering him fondly as a kind, sweet, and loyal friend who will be greatly missed.

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UPDATE: Alexander Gustavo’s fiancé has informed Str8UpGayPorn that while Gustavo was found at Jaxton Wheeler’s home, he was not currently Jaxton Wheeler’s roommate, and he in fact lived with her and her son. She sent the below message and photos to Str8UpGayPorn:

Alexander Gustavo was 31. He was a loving father to our son, and he considered him his own. They had an unconditional love and my son is broken, and he misses his daddy dearly. He was loved by many and will always continue to be loved by everyone, and will be missed by all those lives he touched. I know I will never be able to replace the bond we had and will always have. Forever will he be in my heart. I wish all this were a dream. He was awesome at what he did for a living, and many loved his work, including myself. After a hard day of filming he would like to play craps at Texas casino to unwind, then come home and take a shower with me and sleep. He was a natural, and he loved what he did. Most people just knew him as a well known porn star, but I knew him as much more. I’m beyond broken that we will not be getting married this month; he was who I wanted to spend my life with. His laugh and smile and corny jokes is what people mostly know. He always made sure he came home to tuck my son in at night, watch a movie, and snuggle me to sleep. Just, sadly, this time he had not made his way home. One day I will see him again, and I can’t wait for that day.

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[Correction: An earlier version of this article stated that Gustavo was 33 years old. As his fiancé has clarified, he was 31.]

  • Tim

    ouch. again?

  • John

    so sad, rip

  • Dale Bergman

    My thoughts go out to Alexander Gustavo’s family and friends.

  • sanfv

    Someone is always available to talk here.

    1-800-273-8255

    RIP Alex. 33 is too young.

    • AussieB

      Talk isn’t help

  • C3xxx

    Thoughts for the family and friends and hope Wheeler is surrounded by good friends as what he saw can’t be quickly overcome.

  • Miloš Del Rey

    Shit, how many have passed away this year!!? Such a pity, Condolences.

  • Marik Ishtar

    And wouldn’t you know it, I was just having a conversation with my friend today about people who boast about how great their lives are then commit suicide. Not even a few hours ago, we discussed how annoying we found the arrogance but were mindful that they might be attempting to convince themselves that they are happy.
    Robin Williams said something about the worst thing is being surrounded by people but none of them care. I imagine that’s how most porn stars feel.
    I also want to bring up the whole family ‘love and support’ thing. So many of them claim to have it but the results are still the same. I wonder if it’s actually there or if they just don’t care.
    I think it’s easier to chase distractions then admit you have a problem. Or even open up at all because it’s easier to make jokes (and I guess share nude pics) to get people to like you.

    • Marik Ishtar

      I am sorry if my comment comes off as uncaring and thoughtless. I just hate that no one talks about suicide. Let’s do the world a favor and remind the people that we love that we are still here.
      NOT WITH TEXT but with a call. Better yet, physical interaction.

    • Two Cents

      It is so funny to read this man. I was just talking about this on Saturday night with a couple of friends and earlier this week when the story broke about the couple from HGTV. The mask people wear and the lies they tell to make it seem like they are so happy and have it all. I really think that sometimes things are good for them in a moment or two but most times its really just sad and all wrong. His old lady is saying that they were just about to get married, he had a son he thought of as his, and he was loving life. All of that to me says happy but apparently to him it wasnt or it just wasnt enough. Like you said, I guess its easier to make people really think that youre happy when youre really not. Thanks for the post man. It just says what Im thinking and need to be aware of more often.

      • Kevin

        Funny how people just assume that he did because he was depressed? We don’t know if he did because he owed people money and couldn’t pay them. Or maybe he was depressed. Who knows.
        I had this friend on Facebook. He was good looking, white, nice body, nice smile, lots of friends, always smiling in pictures. Even had a boyfriend he lived with. Everything the gay community says you need to be happy. And yet his boyfriend said he struggled with depression and a substance abuse problem. You never know from Facebook posts what a person’s life is like.

  • FieldMedic

    Fuck, not again!

  • Todd

    I really hate seeing these kinds of posts, but thanks for the update.

    RIP

    ……… http://gifs.joelglovier.com/crying/seth-rogen-crying.gif

  • R.A.M.J

    Damn, this is so sad. RIH

  • sam my

    That’s sux balls, he was of the few gay performers I liked. Very good all round performer. Idk what else I can say, didn’t know him personally, so my condolences to everyone special to him, and that were/ felt close to him.

  • gnormie

    I’m sure Sebastain Kross is happy.

  • gnormie

    is there confirmation from a second source…Jaxton doesn’t strike me as particularly truthful.

  • czer

    Very sad. RIP.

  • Zealot

    Genuinely liked Alexander’s work, gay and straight. He seemed to really enjoy and get into whatever scene he was doing at the time. This is a shock and a tragedy, especially for those like Jaxton and his family who are left behind to wonder why this happened. I just hope they understand that there was probably little they could have done as it appears he didn’t reach out or let anyone know he was in crisis. Even if they do on some level realize that, it’s all too common for survivors to try and take on blame or continually look for things they could have or should have seen, heard or done to prevent this from occurring– which is yet another aspect of suicide which is so insidious for those left in its wake.

    • Goodboy

      I had an ex do that many years ago. Shot himself in the head and no one to this day knows why. Successful healthy guy too. Very selfish. Like you said. Just leave us all behind to spend the rest of our lives wondering why. Someone like Robin Williams you at least understand why they did it. Life for him was not going to be a good one. He didn’t have to leave a note.

      • Tim

        selfish? how do you know? and how would you characterize it that way?

        If I’d had a gun available any of the 3-5 times (I lose exact count, about 15 years have gone by) I’d tried, I’d have been dead too. and I knew i had love and support, though not from the usual quarters. Thing is, that couldn’t and didn’t matter.

        • Zealot

          The really hurtful thing about suicide is that when you’re in that place, you’re not always thinking of how the act will impact others…even people you only know casually. It is like throwing a pebble in a pond. The impact site is small, but the ripples cover the entire surface. For those left behind, (and I have been in those shoes more than once)– you rack your brain trying to make sense of it, or ask yourself what did I do, what didn’t I do, what could I have done, what did I miss, etc. You can bring yourself to the edge of depression/insanity/self-harm trying to deal with it. It is often felt by those left behind that the departed was selfish by not considering how their act would affect them; and yet, when you’re in that space, often, you can’t think of others because you’re so far down the hole that rational thinking isn’t running the show anymore. Many of us have been near the edge, but maybe it is the thought of others that keeps us from acting. Or as you say, the means may not be readily available. It is any number of factors that help or hinder an act of suicide from occurring. Sometimes even when the victim wants to be found or stopped, help doesn’t come in time. I used to think of suicide as selfishness, but having worked in this field and getting more education, I’ve come to realize that like grief and death, we all react differently to an act of suicide– none of which is bad or wrong. It just helps us better understand who we are when we know why we react as we do.

        • https://www.tumblr.com/blog/jhtravus-gay-fiction jhtravus

          Suicide is selfish. In fact, it’s pretty insensitive to the families of suicide victims to gloss over that fact.

          It’s an enormously complex decision that a person takes upon themselves and I can’t even imagine the amount of pain these victims go through in order to feel like it’s their only way out. We need to hold a tremendous amount of compassion and forgiveness for them, but that doesn’t mean we need to lie about the extreme amount of pain they leave behind in their wake.

          Life in unfair to some people. And sometimes there are chemical imbalances in the brain that cause us to do things. Sometimes it’s more than just having a rough day or two. But it’s still selfish. Alexander’s life had value. Just think how lucky you are that you were unsuccessful in your attempts to take your life, and the fact that those who love and care about you were spared from it.

          Stay strong, stay healthy. You are worth more.

          • Tim

            the fact that you can say that displays just how little you understand what it means to hurt that much.

          • https://www.tumblr.com/blog/jhtravus-gay-fiction jhtravus

            Oh don’t go there. I’ve had more than my fair share of hardship. This isn’t a contest about whose life is worse than whose. The main reason I never seriously considered suicide is because I didn’t want to do that to my family. I recognize that I was lucky in that I was able to think clearly.

            Make no mistake. Mental illness has a huge influence on suicide in some cases. Sometimes they just can’t take a step back and look at things so rationally. But not all people who commit suicide are mentally ill, and I believe anyone who would perpetuate misinformation like that is doing a very dangerous thing.

            I stand by what I said, regardless of how qualified to speak on the subject you personally seem to view me. The act of suicide is selfish. The motives, however, may not be.

          • NOTHINGBUTTERRORISM

            Agreed Tim. I could never understand how people can say suicide is selfish. Selfishness by definition is being concerned excessively or exclusively with oneself. None of us can pretend to understand how dark the darkness is for those that choose to loved ones too early. A lot of times, I believe, they are thinking of everything else around them, as the world feels as if it’s collapsing in on them, there’s very little thought about themselves but about how they have failed everyone and everything around them, and how everyone and everything has failed them. The darkness accelerates the spiral, until no matter how much they’d want to deep down inside, they just simply can not find a way out…

            Let’s grieve for the person we’ve lost, let’s celebrate their life, let’s be thankful for how they have touched out lives… and leave out judgements behind….

            -Thoughts and prayers to family and friends, and hopes he found a happiness he couldn’t find here…

      • Maximus

        A person doesn’t have to be mentally ill to commit suicide. However, if there was no readily apparent motive, your ex’s suicide was most likely the result of depression. Depression is a brain disease that can cause extreme sadness, anhedonia, hopelessness, sleep dysfunction, and debilitating lethargy. He probably killed himself because he was suffering and genuinely believed that he would never stop suffering. It had nothing to do with being selfish.

        • Goodboy

          The selfish part was that he left us all forever asking why. No notes. No nothing. Just bye bitches and that was that. I forgive him and hold no grudges for him though.

          • Hereweare

            Unfortunately when you share on the internet, the trolls come out to tell you how you really should feel, and what really happened.

          • Maximus

            It is in some instances unreasonable to hold a disordered mind to the same ethical standards as one would a healthy mind. You cannot assume that he was fully capable of having such consideration for others or that he was operating according to logic.

        • Hereweare

          Well, thank you, Dr. I’m sure he’s clear on HIS experience now.

          • Josh Weaver

            Always someone like you to fill the a$$hole role.

          • Maximus

            Bitch, don’t try me. I can’t stand the “suicide = selfish” trope. It’s a logical fallacy, and it’s stigmatizing and demeaning to people who suffer from depressive and bipolar disorders. Furthermore, having experience with something does not guarantee knowledge of how that thing works. I’ve flown on an airplane a millon times, but that doesn’t mean I have more insight into jet engine mechanics than an aeronautics engineer.

      • http://www.sfmoby.us/ Moby D

        As someone who almost took his own life, the idea that it is selfish is just a coping mechanism for those who don’t understand. Describing someone as selfish is not a description, it is a judgment. Linguistic gymnastics doesn’t change that.

        The pain and misery becomes so great there is no escaping it. It overpowers reason, love, and even self-preservation. It is a wave of emotion so powerful it leaves you feeling lost and completely at the mercy of your pain. You’re singular thought becomes escaping it. That is best description for words that doesn’t evenbcome close to the reality of suicidal ideations.

        • Pertinax

          Saturday he posted on his twitter account about a scene filmed that day and how good it was. He was ‘ normal ‘. Maybe it wasn’t these ” bad feelings ” but something more immediate like the use of some substance. People do it a lot these days…

        • https://www.tumblr.com/blog/jhtravus-gay-fiction jhtravus

          Suicide is selfish. In fact, it’s pretty insensitive to the families of suicide victims to gloss over that fact.

          It’s an enormously complex decision that a person takes upon themselves and I can’t even imagine the amount of pain these victims go through in order to feel like it’s their only way out. We need to hold a tremendous amount of compassion and forgiveness for them, but that doesn’t mean we need to lie about the extreme amount of pain they leave behind in their wake.

          Life is unfair to some people. And sometimes there are chemical imbalances in the brain that cause us to do things. Sometimes it’s more than just having a rough day or two. But it’s still selfish. Alexander’s life had value. Just think how lucky you are that you were unsuccessful in your attempts to take your life, and the fact that those who love and care about you were spared from it.

          Stay strong, stay healthy. You are worth more.

          • NOTHINGBUTTERRORISM

            Selfishness doesn’t equal the act of taking your own life. Selfishness is telling yourself and others, when facing the loss of someone close to them, that their last act on this Earth was an act of pure selfishness. While it may help distract yourself from feeling the grief, pain, sadness, and emptiness by focusing some of that emotion to a feeling a self pity, as if to say to the person “How dare you do that to me….” Times in loss and in depths of grief, is no time to deflect these feelings or try to put yourself into that persons “shoes”. No one knows how dark the darkness can be until your there, and you don’t see your own way out. Let us not judge, let us not be upset with those that we’ve lost. Let us love that person. Love that person like we loved that person when they were here. Let them see that, where ever they are now, they will be loved and will be missed, and despite them leaving us far too soon, we’ll always cherish the times we’ve had with them. Let us only grieve and honor that person, honor what good they had done, what lives they touched and how they will be a part of you forever…..

            I never knew him, or any of his friends, or even anyone close to him, but I wish him God speed, and my thoughts and prayers to all family and friends….

            Regards,
            MJR

          • https://www.tumblr.com/blog/jhtravus-gay-fiction jhtravus

            The world is not black and white. These people are not defined by this one act, just like they are not defined by the way they left this world. The act of suicide is selfish, but it does not mean these people are selfish people. Again, to gloss over the unimaginable pain the families of these victims face seems like a disservice to their pain.

            I have wholeheartedly agreed on this page that sometimes mental illness makes these people unable to recognize the consequences of their act. But not every person who chooses to end their own life is mentally ill, and they are aware of how the world works. They know their loved ones will be left to pick up the pieces. Still, if their pain is too much to endure, they move forward in their decision to end their life. That is why we need to have enormous compassion for victims of suicide. But it’s also why we need to not gloss over the pain of their loved ones.

            I lost my childhood best friend to suicide last year. His mother called me this week, still asking if there was anything she could have done better. In his case, he was mentally ill, and I hope that will someday bring her peace, but other families won’t find that peace.

            I’ve said it here before and I’ll say it again. Your life has value. You are worth more. It’s never too late to turn your life around.

          • wudd_up

            another “wall of text,” eh?

          • Kevin

            You have every right to be angry at them. They robbed you of further happy memories of them.
            Luckily, I’ve never lost someone due to suicide, but I remember being angry at Whitney when she died. It hit me much harder than Michael Jackson, because of my connection to her music and seeing her twice in concert. That doesn’t mean I didn’t play her records anymore. You can love them, and still be angry at them, and yes, feel that the act was selfish.

          • Kim K’s Kute Koochy✓ᵛᵉʳᶦᶠᶦᵉᵈ

            “It’s an enormously complex decision ” I can only speak for myself, it’s not really a “decision” at the moment , at all. You contemplating it, thinking it’s too selfish & all. But then the seduction of “ending the pain” can be overwhelming at times…

          • https://www.tumblr.com/blog/jhtravus-gay-fiction jhtravus

            I appreciate your point of view, but the situation you described is still a decision. We are all responsible for our actions, and unless there’s mental illness involved (which none of us has the authority to diagnose), we are aware of the consequences of our actions.

            The choice to give in to the “seduction of ending the pain”, as you call it, is still a choice. It’s a truly painful thing to imagine, and we need to have enormous compassion for these people.

          • Kim K’s Kute Koochy✓ᵛᵉʳᶦᶠᶦᵉᵈ

            Do you think fat people are selfish? Cuz they “decide” to eat cookies day after day after day after day knowing full well they’ll get fat & burden loved ones with health issues?

            And even if you think fat people are selfish, it takes only 1 weak moment to give in to the suicide thought & act on it. Can a person really be selfish if he gave in once after refusing it 1000 times?

          • https://www.tumblr.com/blog/jhtravus-gay-fiction jhtravus

            Comparing the act of eating a cookie to taking your own life is an incredibly insensitive comparison to make.

            And not once did I ever call anyone selfish. Suicide is a selfish thing, but it does not define these people. They are more than that.

          • http://www.sfmoby.us/ Moby D

            You sound like you mean well but “insensitive”? Really? It’s laughable at how far you’ve completely missed the point. While I appreciate your support, I don’t need your forgiveness and the idea that you feel like I need to be forgiven is offensive.

          • https://www.tumblr.com/blog/jhtravus-gay-fiction jhtravus

            You misread my words. The “forgiveness” is for those who were unfortunately successful in their efforts to end their life. You, thankfully, were not. I realize that those feelings don’t go away over night, but I sincerely hope you’re in a better place now.

            Suicide leaves a dark cloud over the people that love us that will never truly go away. Your friends and family will never have to live with the eternal guilt wondering what they should have done differently. Whether you see it that way or not, I’m grateful for that fact.

            We probably won’t see eye to eye on this. I value your perspective, and as someone whose best friend ended their own life, I hope you can value mine.

            What I hope we can agree on is that we’re glad you’re still here. Your life has value.

        • Tim

          this. exactly. precisely. completely. totally.

        • Lyfe & Love

          That is the most touching and accurate description I’ve heard in awhile. Thank you man.
          #invisibleillness

      • Kim K’s Kute Koochy✓ᵛᵉʳᶦᶠᶦᵉᵈ

        I’ve never understood suicide, ’till I experienced really bad depression. Sometimes the pain’s just there constantly & I desperately wanted to “get out” of it. I went to psychiatrists & took medication too but it took a long long time to get over.
        all I can say is to live w more compassion

        • zit_remedy

          i’m with you there, and am glad that you, too, found your way out. for me it wasn’t so much actively wanting to kill myself as simply wanting to not exist anymore. it’s not selfish when it’s impossible to feel joy or pleasure or hope and your brain is telling you you’re a burden and your loved ones would be better off without you around.
          i’m not saying alexander (requiescat in pace) suffered from clinical depression necessarily, i’m just saying that anyone opining that suicide is, by definition, “selfish” has almost certainly never been there.

          • https://www.tumblr.com/blog/jhtravus-gay-fiction jhtravus

            There is more to a person than just the way they leave this earth. Just because someone does a selfish thing doesn’t mean they are a selfish person.

            “it’s not selfish when it’s impossible to feel joy or pleasure or hope and your brain is telling you you’re a burden and your loved ones would be better off without you around.”

            This is why it’s so important to not gloss over the pain left behind from suicide. We need people to KNOW that their family isn’t better off without them.

            Though mental illness may play a role in many cases, you don’t have to be mentally ill to make the choice to commit suicide. Rather than focusing on how we react after someone commits suicide, we need to be focusing on preventing it from happening in the first place. Keeping the enormous pain left behind for loved ones in the discussion and not glossing over it is a good place to start.

          • zit_remedy

            well said.

  • Scrapple

    When a huge photo like this shows up on Zach’s site, you generally know what the story will be before scrolling down to the headline. Damn. As many times as we’ve seen this happen, it’s still always a shock. Especially when the person didn’t appear to give off any warning signs. But that’s the insidious thing with mental health. It’s such a personalized thing that warning signs and triggers aren’t always obvious to someone on the outside. Someone could be surrounded by friends and loved ones in real life, happily sharing smiling pics on social media and still be hurting. You just never know. Suicide is tragic enough, but when it happens around the holidays it can make it more difficult to process. I hope the people closest to Alexander get the love and support they’re going to need.

    RIP

    • Two Cents

      You dont know how many times I thought about this happening to others like our fav Jared Padalecki. You know that he was severely depressed even though to all of us who love the show he was on set joking around, in magazines with his wife and children, and never knew he was so close to ending it all. Theres others who are like that and thats the scariest thing because with some you know the happiness is fake, theres a hole there and theyre just fakin the funk, but with others like JarPad you never know. You just want to be there before they make that move and youre just frustrated that youre not. Smiles are masks sometimes as one of my boys says.

      • Scrapple

        Yeah, the Jared thing surprised me on one hand, but didn’t surprise me on the other. It’s great that someone who is that high profile and of that age is shedding light on this issue.

  • John

    Men are often too proud to admit they need help.This can be even more true for people from different cultures. There might have been a medication that could have helped the depression that led to this. How sad for his family and friends.

  • OverKill

    R.I.P. to Alexander Gustavo. It’s always sad to hear when people commit suicide as they figure there’s no way out but to take their life. Wish he had gotten the help that he needed.

  • GuruMike

    Oh no. I wonder how suicide prevention can be best addressed in the adult entertainment community.

  • Adrian Sanderson

    I am so shocked! I really liked this guy!! I have a feeling it might not have been suicide, but something completely different,.. drug payments maybe? escort went arigh? I can not believe that he would tweet about his work and then kill himself.. I just don’t buy it!

    • Ant

      arigh? Come on, hooked on phonics.

  • ToxicBrew

    Not the Christmas gift a family wants to be left with. R.I.P.

  • nodoubtfan

    Sad, sad news. RIP and condolences to Alexander’s family and friends.

  • Mike Julius
  • BLACKjHAMMER

    As sad as this is and my heart truly goes out to his FAMILY & FRIENDS especially Jaxton who will probably forever live with that memory of finding his best friend.What I find even more disturbing is the fact that there have been so many porn stars before Alex to commit suicide and unfortunately there are perhaps many more still to come .I do not know of any quick solution to this troublesome trend but maybe if the porn industry as a whole would came together as the driving force like they ONCE were during the height of the AIDS crisis in spite of making lite of it now

    what I find even more disturbing

  • Steve

    Agree. Very very sad. I’m happy to witness the compassion here. Gives me hope. RIP.

  • sxg

    This is so disheartening. He was a good performer who was game for almost anything, and he was handsome. And in even more rare form, AFAIK he was never involved in any drama.

    What’s even sadder about this suicide than some of the past pornstar suicides is that there was no indication of what was troubling him, devastating his friends and family and leaving them with feelings of what they could have done, or how did they miss all the signs.

    For some reason I was curuous what the boyfriend-beating methcheeks Republican had to say about his suicide, but so far nothing. I did however find something he posted a few days ago on how he felt about him.
    https://uploads.disquscdn.com/images/aebdb9a6a0a51ed80e448460adfeaf64427267bbf6bf080d4a9294ed089fcb74.png

    • Klaus
      • jay

        he seems to of deleted the most recent tweet…thank goodness.

    • https://www.tumblr.com/blog/jhtravus-gay-fiction jhtravus

      This is so unnecessary and cruel to try and dig shit like this up when someone has taken their own life.

      Just because the two guys didn’t get along doesn’t mean he’s happy about or responsible for Alexander’s suicide. And don’t try to act like that wasn’t your objective. Spare us.

      If not respect, show some decency.

      • sxg

        Me backpedal from my comment???
        https://uploads.disquscdn.com/images/6496eb4cbf7a04a907104d7d21adfa3f7c6e7433144cdd79523dd5292a0c7318.gif
        https://uploads.disquscdn.com/images/441afd66cc0e5c8e8deebfa1dd1f1159364c3d9e60afef2cad61210d104f0d47.gif
        If I believed that shovelfaced everglades swamp turd had any responsibility in Alexander’s suicide, I would be more direct in saying so and wouldn’t be as cryptic. And I don’t worship him enough to break into his septic system and eat all his shit like you do to believe he has that type of power over another human being.

        What is interesting to see though he has not once addressed Alexander’s suicide. And as someone who loves to make everything about himself and who supposedly was on the verge of committing suicide himself, which most of us either believed it was all BS or wish he’d gone through with it, it’s a bit surprising he has nothing to say. Maybe he does feel regret the way he’s treated him in the past, but for him to have regrets he’d have to ve human.

        And decency? This is the gay porn industry where do you think you are?

        • https://www.tumblr.com/blog/jhtravus-gay-fiction jhtravus

          lol, acting all tough saying you aren’t going to backpeddle and then you proceed to write two huge paragraphs backpeddling away.

          But hey, at least you have your gifs to distract us, right?

  • NickDC

    ZACH:
    Regarding this statement by Wheeler:
    “To know that he didn’t say one thing to me, didn’t reach out, [and] to find him with his girlfriend and her son following right behind me.”

    Did Wheeler meet Gustavo’s girlfriend and her son at the residence and the three entered together? (Had they not been able to reach Gustavo for a period of time while Wheeler was away?)

    Thoughts and prayers to his family and friends. As @sanfv:disqus so appropriately wrote, if you are depressed and considering taking your own life someone is always available to talk with you that will not judge you 1-800-273-8255.

    • Tim

      well, I would presume that since they were roommates that Jaxton and the gf and kid were good enough friends that it wouldn’t be weird for them to be together–whatever the cause. probably was quite mundane.

      and, you know, having a bi boyfriend might have had its compensations for her in various ways, too.

      • NickDC

        I wasn’t suggesting there was anything weird about the girlfriend and her child being with Wheeler at the time; I was asking for clarification about that quote in order to get a better understanding of the events that preceded such a horrific discovery. Essentially asking if Wheeler and/or the GF been unable to reach Gustavo causing them to become concerned prior to Wheeler’s return.

        • Tim

          gotcha. I just thought that the explanation for why he’d be entering with them was probably much more mundane “went to grab the kid from school” or “went out to grab takeout” or the like were far more likely than “hey, I can’t reach my boyfriend. can you?” in my mind.

          and yeah, depression doesn’t always work like that. for all we know either one of them could have got off a phone call with him a few minutes before they walked in to see him dead. it can be suddenly overpowering, or the facade can be quite thick.

          • NickDC

            Excellent thoughts. My heart goes out to Jaxton, Alexander’s girlfriend and her child; I cannot imagine the unspeakable horror of seeing a loved one who has taken their own life in that or any manner.

    • thisone

      I also don’t understand why no one heard the gun go off. Maybe he lives in an isolated area, but even if no one was home, you’d think a neighbor would hear the gunshot.

      • http://twitter.com/seaguy11 Seaguy

        Maybe he had a silencer or used a pillow to muffle the sound?

  • Iain Gardener

    2016 had one more kick in the balls before the bastard left the building, RIP

    • dqh257

      Two: let’s not forget Zsa Zsa Gabor. RIP!

  • bloodhound

    I am so sorry to hear that.He seemed like a good guy.

  • joeguy45

    just tragic to hear this news. I chatted with him on line for a while in the summer and he was so nice and helpful.
    i work as a counsellor and i have personal experience of friends taking their lives. sometimes its hard to spot the signs even when you are talking to the person about suicide and asking of their intentions. the really sad thing is generally no one wants to die… they just want the pain to stop.

  • Tim

    next thing you know Betty White, Dolly Parton, and some random well-liked gay porn star will be killed in the same multi-car wreck.

    At this rate, I’m almost expecting it.

    • Pertinax

      What ?

    • zit_remedy

      don’t even! i today thought of that fucking asshole 2016 taking betty white (god forbid!) and immediately had to knock on every piece of wood in the vicinity. dolly parton? i can’t!

  • Denis-Adam Pompa

    Just reading this story, it’s sad and awful. Why Why Why, this attractive guy would take his life and leave those so close to him in grief. We all have demons but we have to fight and be strong to overcome whatever comes are way. Yeah I admit I considered doing this too why, loneliness can bring you down, and kill, but I stay try to stay strong each day. Not sure what caused him to do it, seemed he had friends, love and all. So sad peace!

  • Joey Steele

    I am so saddened to hear this. I had met Alexander once at Share nightclub in Las Vegas. He was a nice guy. I am lucky I worked in adult industry for some time, and moved on made a life. I only wish he had reached out. My heart goes out to Jaxton Wheeler his friend, his family , friends, fans and all who knew him.

  • Xzamilloh

    My heart goes out to Gustavo’s family, but also to Jaxton Wheeler’s because that kind of thing sticks with you forever, to find someone like that. I handled a few dead bodies in Afghanistan, but to see a personal friend dead in that manner? I hope there is a support system in place for Wheeler, and other porn stars. I joke a lot, but I also know that these are human beings deserving of love and happiness.

    • Binary Busting Boo Boo Kitty

      You chose to handle dead bodies in Afghanistan. Wheeler didn’t choose that horror. Don’t equate your poor choices with Wheeler’s level of nightmare.

      • Xzamilloh

        I’m not engaging you. Someone was in the throes of depression and ended their life in horrible way, and a friend found them. That is it. I wish him the best and to find peace of mind. Take your bile somewhere else.

        • Binary Busting Boo Boo Kitty

          Sure thing. Keep equating traumas like a prick. Hope your next tour of duty finds someone stumbling over your body!

          • Maximus

            Gurl. Now you’re just being messy.

            https://media2.giphy.com/media/uOBIRAaThprji/giphy.gif

          • Binary Busting Boo Boo Kitty

            Nope. Genuine wishes. Mostly because I work every day with what his kind has done over here. And so I find his equating of traumas to be beyond reprehensible.

          • Travis

            Binary, you’re a hair-splitting asshole.

          • Binary Busting Boo Boo Kitty

            Cool! You’re just a fucking asshole.

          • https://www.tumblr.com/blog/jhtravus-gay-fiction jhtravus

            You’re trying WAY too hard…

          • Binary Busting Boo Boo Kitty

            Nah, not if it’s what you really wish it isn’t.

  • Josh in OR

    Sad, but more evidence that gay-for-pay is terrible fucking business,
    and messes with guys heads. STOP FETISHIZING STRAIGHT MEN, guys!!!

    • http://www.sfmoby.us/ Moby D

      Yes, because no one outside of porn commits suicid? There isn’t a shred of evidence here that shows he was upset over doing porn. If you can’t improve the silence, don’t break it. Seriously, what a stupid comment.

    • Ant

      How do you know he is not bisexual?

    • https://www.tumblr.com/blog/jhtravus-gay-fiction jhtravus

      1) He wasn’t gay4pay
      2) Please don’t use someone’s death to push for the type of porn you’d like to see or not see
      3) Shut the hell up and have some respect.

  • Maximus

    This is what happens when a society doesn’t guarantee quality health care for all of its citizens.

    https://media3.giphy.com/media/3ornkbl5jev6mIz4oU/giphy.gif

    • seeker630

      What reason do you have to think he would have sought out medical help? One of the tragic aspects in so many of the cases we hear about is that the victim apparently did NOT seek help.

      • Maximus

        Hmm. That’s a valid point. As sanfv said, there’s a substantial amount of stigma attached to mental illness. Then there are male gender norms that discourage men from admitting weakness and needing help. Both are most certainly barriers to treatment.

    • sanfv

      I also advocate for the removal of the stigma of mental health, among other things. Socialized medicine is the way to go but we need to push that it’s okay to seek help and medication, it’s okay for boys to cry. It’s okay for girls to fix cars and it’s okay to not feel like a boy or a girl.

      I’m terrified for the folks that will suffer once Trump goes after the ACA!

      :,(

  • http://getlost.com David Dwyer

    There’s more than a hint of deja vu amongst his costars in the porn business on Twitter. Outpourings of grief and lukewarm platitudes of “I never saw this coming”. It begs the question, with so many suicides in the industry, has anybody ever tried to ask themselves why? It’s just happening at such a frequency that the authorities ought to investigate working conditions, pay, or the general mental wellbeing of performers before they even set foot onto a set.

  • marcuz86

    RIP Alexander 😢

  • http://www.twitter.com/mrpam mr. Pam GayPornMama

    https://uploads.disquscdn.com/images/80d0951f3bf28b85c8c1a1ebc069915be04b2d1a363a247fccbd776365621043.png Big hugs & love go out to Alexander Gustavo, Jaxton Wheeler and all his family and friends. I’m so sorry :(

  • https://www.tumblr.com/blog/jhtravus-gay-fiction jhtravus

    Such a shame. And that he had a fiancée and her son who loved him. I hope he found the peace he was looking for. RIP Alexander.

  • Estelle

    This past summer, he was bragging about his current boyfriend, a male doctor, then a short time later upset that the relationship had ended. From going from that to being engaged to be married to someone with a kid, who he was also posting videos of having sex with on twitter along with another man (Sebastian Cross), he obviously wasn’t the most stable of people. I’m sorry he didn’t feel he had anyway out, but I’m also sorry that that kid was brought into that chaos even before his suicide.

  • Nate

    My condolences to the family and friends.

  • Ceeroc

    Well known porn star? I typed this dude’s name in on MyVidster and nothing came up. Not zip, zilch, nada. I find it hard to feel sorry for people who commit suicide when I know people who have lost their lives and people who are battling cancer…..fighting so hard to live. Very selfish to take your own life, especially when you have a family. The little boy has to grow up without a dad now.

    https://s30.postimg.org/rx98c9dyp/Capture.jpg

    • https://www.tumblr.com/blog/jhtravus-gay-fiction jhtravus

      Shame on you.

      Everyone has their own struggles and perspective. There is no value in pitting different peoples’ troubles against each other in order to warrant your compassion.

      If not respect, at least show some decency.

      • Ceeroc

        You can’t shame me. The compassion I have is for the little boy who is now without a father. My compassion is for the family and friends. Basically everyone who loved him and now have to live with a hole in their hearts. Let’s talk about that.

        • https://www.tumblr.com/blog/jhtravus-gay-fiction jhtravus

          My entire point appears to have gone over your head. You can have compassion for victims of suicide AND people fighting cancer. You have compassion for Alexander AND you can have compassion for people who have been killed. Compassion isn’t a limited resource. Showing this man some compassion doesn’t mean he deserves it any more or less than someone else.

          And you clearly didn’t read the article. The little boy is the son of his recent fiancée.

  • Drew Barrymore

    Another suicide in porn …

  • AussieB

    At this point, whynot use his real name?

  • paultacoma51

    I’ve wondered from the discussions I’ve read here if the label of selfishness can be applied to a person who decides to end their life because of debilitating physical pain and possibly terminal illness, such as with euthanasia. Personally, I think a person has the right to end their life. However, we seem to treat mental illness differently. To me it’s all the same thing. A person can no longer endure the pain in their lives, whether mental or physical. The sad part of this decision is that it’s a final, fatal one. There’s no going back; no reversing it.

  • Kris Coburn

    RIP my friend.

    I knew Alex in Seattle before he began his adult video career and moved to Vegas—he was a genuinely nice guy. Like everyone else, I’m devastated by the news of his death…and like them I’m trying to understand why this happened…and I don’t.

    I am sad and angry and numb and don’t quite believe it…and then I get to the point I really can’t deal with it right now.

    While it’s true that the porn industry has lost a lot of people, it’s not usually like this. I often wonder if a text or phone call at the right moment could have prevented this…but that’s coping. He was surrounded by people close to him.

    I’m not looking to blame the industry, because obviously not everyone in porn ends their life like this…but I do know Alex had dealt with substance issues in the past.

    While maybe not directly their fault, the studios haven’t done enough to provide addiction services for its actors and actresses. In fact, many studios have a zero-tolerance policy and avoid actors/actresses with addiction issues…which only makes it worse for them.
    Unfortunately some of their members have fallen through the cracks—they need to do better by them.

  • Kris Coburn

    RIP my friend.

    I knew Alex in Seattle before he began his adult video career and moved to Las Vegas—he was a genuinely nice guy. Like everyone else, I’m devastated by the news of his death…and like them I’m trying to understand why this happened…and I don’t.

    I am sad and angry and numb and don’t quite believe it…and then I get to the point I’m overwhelmed…and can’t deal with it.

    While it’s true that the porn industry has lost a lot of people, it’s not usually like this. Over the last few days, I often wonder if a text or phone call at the right moment could have prevented this…but that’s just me coping because he was surrounded by people close to him.

    I’m not looking to blame the industry, because obviously not everyone in porn ends their life…but I do know Alex had dealt with substance issues in the past. While maybe not directly their fault, the studios haven’t done enough to provide addiction services for its actors and actresses. In fact, many studios have a zero-tolerance policy and avoid former stars with addiction issues…which only makes it worse for them.

    Unfortunately some of the industry’s members have fallen through the cracks…and they need to do better by them.