Project Runway Star Jack Mackenroth Apologizes For “Lying” About Ex-Boyfriend Dolf Dietrich, Says Trump And COVID-19 May Have Caused Drug Addiction
Just three weeks ago, Project Runway star turned gay porn performer Jack Mackenroth came forward to allege that his ex-boyfriend—gay porn star Dolf Dietrich—had assaulted him and was a collector of child porn. Today, Mackenroth is speaking publicly again, but this time it’s to apologize to Dietrich for “lying” about him, and to admit that he’s been suffering from an addiction to methamphetamine and “large amounts of pills.”
ICYMI, this was one of the tweets Mackenroth posted back on May 6th, accusing Dietrich of assault and child porn;
Posting to Facebook from what looks like a hospital room today, Mackenroth now says he’s “deeply sorry” for lying about Dietrich, and while he doesn’t specify what exactly he lied about, he’s presumably referring to the child porn and assault allegations. Mackenroth goes on to admit that he began using meth near the end of his relationship with Dietrich, and that his drug use “increased exponentially” following the break-up. Mackenroth states that he had a seizure while detoxing in the hospital, and he asks his Facebook followers to wish him luck as he begins to live a sober life.
Here below is Mackenroth’s full Facebook statement, which begins with his theory that his drug use may have “ramped up” recently “because of Trump or most certainly the COVID isolation”:
I don’t typically like to post my personal issues on FB but I need to fully explain and make amends and there is one person in particular who really deserves a public apology. The truth is that I haven’t been OK for quite a while. I’m not sure if it really ramped up because of trump or most certainly the COVID isolation but I have been self-medicating for a long time. Up until this week, I can’t remember a time when I didn’t go to sleep without some sort of pill—usually abusing them.
Near the end of my relationship with Christopher Ellsworth I started using meth again and taking large amounts of pills to come down. During and after our very messy break up I was f-ed up most of the time and not in my right mind. Drugs are no excuse for behavior as there were a litany of bad decisions that got me there.
The last few weeks we were together I lied, I stole and damaged his property, I made him feel unsafe. For that I am deeply sorry. This was in the weeks leading up to my crash and burn.
After we broke up I went into a deep shame spiral. My drug use increased exponentially and therefore I needed even more downers to allow me to come down and sleep. This leads to the actual reason for my hospitalization in my post above.
I can no longer control my anxiety or sleep without depressants. I didn’t have my regular pills like Xanax or Clonazepam so my only option was alcohol (which I actually hate) but it was better than being in my own head. I was probably drinking for almost a week straight from morning to night sleeping or passing out whenever I could until my mind and body just said “no” and I staggered to ask my room mate to call 911.
This lead to a rapid detox in the hospital which was the cause of my seizure. It was scary as hell. I can’t live like this anymore and I need help. I plan to enter an inpatient rehab facility as soon as I am able and hopefully get my life back.
Again I am DEEPLY sorry for anyone I have hurt or disappointed in any way. I take full responsibility for my actions and will work to make reparations to anyone I have affected negatively. I have completely surrendered to my addictions and I’m mortified, humbled, ashamed and depressed. I’m hopeful for the future living sober and with rigorous honestly.
Wish me luck. I will definitely need help. (Btw I should get out of the hospital today or tomorrow but I don’t have a proper phone as I don’t have a SIM card so I can only use internet based apps. I’m also at Lenox Hill Hospital and I’ve been moved to room 7618D.)
Love, Jack
As of post time, Dolf Dietrich has not responded publicly to Jack Mackenroth’s apology, which was published early this morning. But, four days ago, Dietrich tweeted (see below) that he’d be calling 911 and pressing charges against someone (presumably Mackenroth) if this person attempted to make contact with him. Dietrich and Mackenroth live in the same apartment building in New York.
